My name is Ahmeti, I am 13 years old.
Lots of things have changed in my life so I often feel insecure.
A few years ago, my family fled from Kosovo. I still remember running through the woods to escape from the soldiers.
I love learning new things and I pick things up quickly at school but I’m still catching up with the others in my class.
Am I beautiful?
I’m not quite sure why, but I have been feeling very self-conscious lately. Yesterday, Mum and I went shopping to buy stuff for school. We passed a group of girls and they were all wearing really cool, trendy dresses. I suddenly felt so awkward in my dress! Sometimes, I don’t feel like I am as pretty as the other girls in my school. I don’t know why I have been feeling that way recently as I never really cared about it before. Some of my clothes are starting not to fit, because I’ve grown a few centimetres over the summer. I’ve also started to gain a bit of weight. So after buying some stationery, Mum and I went to buy clothes.
I tried on lots of things, but I didn’t really like any of them. Afterwards, my Mum and I walked around the shopping centre then went off to sit on a bench. No matter how hard I try to hide my feelings, Mum can always tell when something is wrong.
“What’s wrong, Ahmeti? You’ve been quiet the entire day,” Mum began to say.
“I don’t know, Mum,” I said. “I don’t feel very good about myself.”
She hugged me very tightly and said that I am beautiful, just the way I am.
“But Mum, you’re supposed to stay stuff like that!” I sighed.
When we went home that night, Mum pulled out an old photo album. She also took out a bunch of pens, stickers and papers. We were going to make a scrapbook! She put a recent picture of me in one of the pages and asked me to write three unique things about myself. Hmm… I’m not sure!
1. I can speak more than one language
2. I really like writing stories
3. I can do karate!
Mum then asked me to write three things that I’m good at. This was more difficult. 1. Writing! (Mum said I HAD to add this one!)
2. Looking after my cat (because Millie is great cat too!)
3. Learning new things
After writing these things down in the scrapbook, my Mum and I decorated it together. It was really fun! After finishing the scrapbook, I felt much better! I am so much more than what I see in the mirror.